Big surprise that i have not blogged in awhile. Things go good, but not mind blowing and Im in the moment too far to reflect. Good/Bad? Not sure. At least Im focused on the here and now and not someplace that does not exist. Ive been meaning ot speak about pivital (sp?) moments...and while at some points they are forefront in my mind, today they are escaping me. I think Im in one. Its now late feb. I was laid off in January - has it really been a month? WOW. I am only applying for my first job today (the PERFECT job today). Ive had enough with not being super satisfied. Its a fine day, people open windows, they leave their houses just for a short while! lol... Obama is here today. I feel free from the shackles that I call James these days. I had a dream the other night that was very freeing. The world as we know it was changing - and in order to be truly saved you had to get on a boat/ship/plane (some sort of vessel) or face a likely death or some sort of hardship (at least that was a risk). I left James on site and saved myself. It was bitter sweet, but i cant let guilt/loyalty/empathy guide my actions to keep me pinned to less than who I am. Im seeing him on friday, but I also know thats a bad idea and I likely should not anymore.
I need to just write and write and write. I still have so much stuff left from this year to get out but its all slipping into my inner sanctum - africa, relationships, cause and effect, job stuff etc. Hmm... fitting quote on trirudy today:
"Sometimes in life...we get so caught up in just doing, we don't see what we've accomplished, the lives we've touched. We slow down and see the forest only when there's fire."
Well, there is no fire today and thats a good thing.
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